counting the days

excited na ako mag november 26. i asked my tita to bring home something i asked my cousin to buy for me from the states. and now i’m counting the days. hehe. plus, that’s the day my doctor’s coming back from his trip from i dunno where. basta sabi ng receptionist nya last saturday when i came for a follow-up check-up: he’s out of the country and will be back on the 26th. so i have 2 things to look forward to on the 26th.

doctor doctor i am sick

i was out sick last monday. tuesday i went to work. ang hirap kse umabsent lagi kse yung trabaho mo naman, walang ibang gagawa. so pag nag-absent ka, yung naiwan mong work, andun pa rin. plus another day’s work, nag-pile up.

kaso, around 3pm, i was feeling really lousy na. giniginaw na ako. so even when i was in a weekly meeting, i went back to my room and took my jacket. kala ko the conference room (where we were having the meeting) was just too cold for my taste. i kept going to the clinic (na wala namang nurse — m-w-f lang kse ang nurse dun) kse i wanted to get my temperature. so i asked one of my crew, who was a non-practicing nurse, to take my temp.

we went to the clinic at naghanap pa ng thermometer (under upgrading kse ang clinic namin, so everything was everywhere, hehe). after a few minutes, sows, 35.1degC lang pala ang temp ko. in other words, nagi-inarte. hehe.

when our meeting finished at 430pm, i went back to my room, at talaga naman masama ang pakiramdam. i kept asking everyone who went in our room to feel kung may lagnat ba ako. karamihan nagsabi, hindi naman daw ako mainit.

anyway, at 6pm, umuwi na ako. ni hindi ko na hinintay yung kapalitan ko. nag-email na lang ako ng endorsements.

pagdating na pagdating ko kagabi sa house, i immediately took the thermometer and took my temp. sabi ni hubby, hindi naman daw ako mainit. pero masama nga ang pakiramdam ko kaya kinuha ko pa rin ang temp ko. after a few minutes, i looked at the temp at sows, 38.9degC ang temp. ang weird kse sabi ni hubby i didn’t feel hot at all daw. didn’t even had dinner. nag-soup lang ako, then i took some paracetamol and went straight to bed.

maalaga talaga ang hubby ko (di sya mashadong sweet, pero pag nagkakasakit ako, haay, maalaga sya). ginising nya pa ako after 4 hours and told me to take some meds again.

i didn’t go to work today. i’m still not feeling well. when i woke up kaninang madaling araw, may lagnat pa rin ako. i should go to the doctor. kaso mo walang clinic ang doctor ko pag wednesday.

i was supposed to conduct a training this afternoon, pero dahil absent nga ako, i told my boss i’ll move it to tomorrow na lang. that is if i’m feeling better. medyo woozy pa rin ang feeling ko.

pero ayoko nang umabsent pa. i’m sure andami na namang trabahong naghihintay sa pagbabalik ko.

i’m totally alone today at the house. my in-laws went out. hubby’s at work. sobra na yata ako sa higa kaya woozy ang ulo ko. i tried reading blogs, to pass the time, kaso sumasakit pa rin ang ulo ko.

sabi ko, mag-post lang ako isa tapos, bed na ulet. i want some soup. kaso kakatamad to get up and make some. haay.

antuken = non-stop daldal

had a fun night last sunday. maldito was in town, at kahit sinungitan ako ni hubby at ayaw payagan, i still went ahead and met up with him.

while at work, i asked him & jeck where we were going to hang out. ang sagot chosen ground daw, 5 pm. somewhere in malate. so, okei. parang malapit lang din ang malate sa bus station, so hindi hassle ang pag-uwi ko.

palagay ko jeck’s not very familiar with malate, like me (sows, ’twas ages ago nung nagimik kami dun), kaya we decided to meet up at rob muna. he said nbs daw kami magkita. ansarap talaga magbabad sa bookstore. i kept on wishing i had tons of money so i could buy the books that i wanted.

ang unang natanong ko nga pala kay maldito eh kung bukas na ba yung place ng 5pm? knowing malate kse, late sila di ba?

we walked along bocobo until we reached nakpil. the old places i used to hang out were still there. verve room. common ground. and then it struck me. hindi kaya common ground ang mini-mean ni maldito when he said chosen ground? sakto, pagdating namin sa tapat ng common ground, andun din si maldito with two of his friends.

bigla kaming napahagalpak ng tawa. kung anoman ang rason, samen na lang yun. hehe.

turned out, sarado pa ang place na gusto nilang puntahan. we ended up hanging out at the one in front of where we met.

tahimik sa personal ang 2 bloggers na kasama ko (kapanipaniwala ba?). dahil ayoko ng dead air. daldal galore ang nagawa ko.

twas a fun night. when xg arrived, mejo napabuntung-hininga ako. kse feeling ko may ka-relyebo na ko. hahaha.

dahil matindi pa kay cinderella ang curfew ko, had to leave by 8pm dapat. pero i waited awhile longer to meet xg. i read her blog (hello, di ba obvious, nasa blogroll ko), pero i don’t comment. hehe. shy daw.

thanks jeck sa paghatid sa bus station. and thanks maldito for the chicha na 3 bayan pa ang pinanggalingan. at sa guitar kitchen (hehehe). bitin yung gimik, para saken. pero that was better than not meeting up with you guys at all. dahil strict si hubby, i had to compromise di ba.

too bad, i wasn’t able to witness you guys singing on-stage. hahaha.

at si gasti, drawing. hehehe.

i hate you jackson!

a couple of months ago, hubby came to me and asked for a name. sabi ko para saan? sabi nya meron daw puppy nagbigay sa tatay nya. the first name that came to my mind was bogart. ayaw nya. meron pa ibang mga sinabi pero ang napili nga e jackson. nakakatawa pa nga ng una kse si tatay iba ang tawag sa kanya (nakalimutan ko na kung ano). hindi naman sya nalilito, pero para maiwasan nga ang malito, tinawag na rin syang jackson ni tatay.

nung una cute sya. playful. pag padating na ang asawa ko niloloko ko si jackson na salubungin na ang tatay nya. at tuwang-tuwa naman ang mokong.

i started to hate him, when i came home and found a pair of my havs na may ngatngat. sino pa ba ang salarin e wala naman nang ibang aso sa bahay. pero sige, wearable pa rin naman yung tsinelas kahit may ngatngat nya.

then one night, i saw a pair of my sneakers na sira na rin. isa lang ang suspek. at wala nang iba kundi si jackson. pero keri pa rin. even if i hated him then, okei lang. kse my FIL and my hubby seemed to enjoy having him around.

a few weeks ago, i was searching for a pair of sandals that i wanted to wear. terno sa belt ko sana (kulay ube). pero i couldn’t find the other half. isa lang ang present. sinabi na lang ng MIL ko na nasira na daw at pinaglaruan ni jackson. so mejo tumitirik na balahibo ko sa inis di ba? nasagot ko na lang ng: SANA HO TINAPON NYO NA RIN YUNG ISA KSE WALA NANG SILBI YUNG ISA LANG.

from the 1st ngatngat incident, hindi ko na iniiwan na sahig yung mga slippers/shoes/sandals ko. i always put it on top of either a chair or on top of the shoe rack.

last night, after having dinner out, shempre, ganun ulet ginawa ko. iniwan ko na ang sandals ko on top of the chair, then i went inside, played a little in FB, then went to bed.

paglabas ko kanina, ano ang makikita ko? yung sandals na hinubad ko, ngatngat front and back. so sobrang inis ako di ba. na tipong napasigaw ako ng: PUTANGINANGJACKSONYANHA!

nagulat ang asawa ko, sabi baket daw. shempre pa, ibinato ko sa kanya yung sandals ko. pagkakita nya, kinuha nya at ipinampalo kay jackson.

the whole time, on my way to work, sooper nagkukumulo ang dugo ko. nung malapit na ko sa office, napasipa ako sa kotse. with matching mura para mailabas ng konti ang inis ko. before getting off the car, i told hubby to bring all my shoes/sandals, the whole shoe rack inside the house (andun kse sya sa may veranda e). sabi ko, hindi nyo naman itatapon yang aso na yan, ipasok mo na lang mga sapatos ko. ang sabi nya: itatali ko na lang si jackson. napasagot tuloy ako ng: baket kelangang masira nya pa ang apat na sapatos ko bago mo naisip yan! sabay BLAG ng pinto.

sobrang inis to the nth level ang lola nyo. ampanget nga kse everyone at work was greeting me “good morning” and i was all “miss groucho”! dati pa kse sinabi ko nang wag hayaang umakyat sa balcon ang asong yun. ang nakakasuya, laging shoes & sandals ko pinupuntirya ng lekat na asong yun. grrr! ang nakakainis mo pa, ang pinupuntirya nya yung mga gusto kong shoes/sandals. kainis!

old and grey

minsan, pagkagaling ko ng trabaho, dumirecho na ako ng mcdo. pag tinatamad kse ako magluto ng agahan, at lampas 8am na ako nakakauwi (from night shift), sa mcdo na lang ako nagb-breakfast. umorder ako ng usual breakfast meal ko pag mcdo ako kumakain. isang order ng pancake and sausage meal atsaka isang hamdesal with cheese. ang drink of choice? orange juice. masarap sanang mag-kape, kaso baka hindi na ako makatulog.

dahil alone akong nag-breakfast (hubby went to work already), kalimitan ang ginagawa ko habang kumakain ay pinapanood ko ang iba pang taong nasa loob ng mcdo (read, wala pa kaming sampu ng oras na to). naaliw lang ako kse meron isang matandang lalaki na pumasok, bitbit ang 2 helmet na pula. obviously, sakay sya ng motorsiklo papunta ng mcdo. umupo sya sa isang mesa, malapit sa akin. parang may hinihintay. napaisip naman ako at nasabi sa sariling: “don’t tell me naghihintay sya ng ka-date. kse baket 2 yung helmet na bitbit nya di ba?” mukha na syang lolo. naka-shorts na asul, white na shirt at naka-rubber shoes.

diretso lang ako sa pagkain ko nang may nakita akong pumaradang SUV malapit sa harap ng bintanang kinap-pwestuhan ko. nakita ko bumaba ang 5 oldies din. 2 guys and 3 girls. tapos pumasok din sa mcdo. dun ako naaliw. kse mukhang magba-barkada pala sila ng naunang lolong napansin ko pagpasok pa lang. after a number of exchanged handshakes, pumunta silang lahat sa counter to order their breakfast.

hindi ko alam kung baket sila nagkita-kita dun. kse pagka-upo naman nila e nagbasa lang din muna sila ng mga dyaryo (kse di ba may free inquirer sa mcdo pag breakfast?). pinanood ko pa sila ng konti. hanggang sa matagal na palang ubos ang breakfast ko at naramdaman ko na ang tawag ng kama ko.nakikinita ko nga sa kanila ang nanay ko e. i’m not saying that she’s that old! pero kse yung personalidad ng nanay ko, parang feeling ko, old age won’t stop her from going out with her friends. hahaha.

napaisip lang ako. sana pagtanda ko, ganun pa rin kami ng mga kaibigan ko. paminsan-minsan magkita-kita para mag-breakfast sa mcdo. mag-kwentuhan. sa ngayon nga, sobrang bihira na kaming magkita ng mga kaibigan ko. siguro dahil mga busy na kami sa mga buhay-buhay namin.

one time, sa wake ng dad ng isa kong k-batch, kasabay namin nagpunta ang mga sis ko. isang grupo din sila from the 70s. ang mga kwento nila, yung mga anak nila eh mga nagt-trabaho na rin. wala na sila mashado pinagkakaabalahang mga anak na papasok sa school. so yung natigil daw na pag-gimik nila when they had kids, resume lang din daw kse malalaki na ang mga anak nila. sabi pa ng isa, after the wake daw, inom muna sila. o di ba nakaka-aliw? nung minsang nakasabay namin sila sa isang activity/function, taob kami kse pale pilsen ang gustong beer at hindi sanmig light. hah.

i just wish when i’m all wrinkly at panget na ang posture (read: kuba — kse i don’t drink milk. osteoporosis, here i come!) magkita-kita rin kami ng mga kaibigan ko. i’m sure, our table will be the loudest pa rin. hahaha.

busy?

medyo. di ko na naman namalayan, mga 2 months na naman akong walang post. kalimitan kse when i get home from work, i’d eat dinner then go straight to bed na. or kung galing naman ng night shift, mag-breakfast tapos kama na ulet susunod. no wonder my tummy’s growing. wala nang exercise. tsk tsk.

nalulugi na nga kami sa binabayad namin sa pldt. di naman nagagamit ang dsl mashado.

tama bang pag overworked (underpaid??? hehehe) ka eh ang katapat non eh mananaba ka rin? unti-unti ko kseng nare-realize na sumisikip na ang mga jeans ko. i’d always prefer to wear slacks or skirts to breathe better. hahaha. tapos, pag naka-uniform ako (4 days a week), i’d always want to change into our plant uniform (i work in a pharma multinational company, hence the need for plant uniforms) na simpleng t-shirt lang. ang rason? i can’t raise my arms properly sa uniform ko. masikip na kse sa braso. middle of the year pa lang, alangan magpagawa ulet ako ng uniform. mga 1400 pesos ata ang isang set. i already asked my mom to repair my pants (read: luwagan) at ngayon, tama lang fit nya. kaso pagdating sa top, mukhang hindi pwedeng i-repair. tinipid daw sa tela e. walang allowance. waaah!

i told hubby, i’d buy a threadmill. para maka-exercise. pinagtawanan ako. dahil bumili na daw ako ng yoga mat noon pa. up to now, andun sa likod ng cabinet. hindi nagagamit. he once borrowed it from me. ayoko sana ipahiram, sabi ko, mapapawisan nya. again, pinagtawanan ako. shempre daw. exercise mat yun e. kaso sobrang pawisin yung asawa ko. pinahiram ko pa rin (half-heartedly dahil ayokong masabihan ng madamot, hahaha). pero the whole time, i was watching him. he also said, wag daw threadmill bilhin ko. kse prone to knee or ankle injuries daw yun. eh alam nyang lampa-yatot ako. he suggested stationary bike na lang daw.

kaso mo, kelan ba ako nakapunta ng mall? sus, matagal na. kung makapunta man, gahol sa oras para mag-shop.

isa pa sa problema ko, wala namang space sa bahay kung saan ilalagay yung bike na yun. sabi nya sa baba daw, yung parang silong. ang fear ko, baka nakawin. kung iuuwi ko naman sa batangas (dahil dun maraming space!), eh di parang useless lang din pagbili ko at once a week lang ako umuwi sa nanay ko e. minsan pa nga hindi. dilemma, dilemma.

ngayon, i hate looking at my naked self in the mirror (which i do, after i take a bath & before i put on my clothes). butete tiyan e. haay. kung sana sa boobies na lang napunta. baket ba pag tumataba ang isang tao, tiyan ang unang lumalaki? hindi? ako lang ba yun? tsk. pinapangarap ko na nga lang na bumalik ako sa dati kong figure.

once i was shopping with hubby. naghahanap ako ng tankini. para nga matakpan ang mejo lumalaki ko nang tummy. hindi ako pinayagan. kse daw hindi na ako mags-strive to remove the tummy. two piece pa rin ang pinapabili saken. ang ending, hindi ako nakabili. kse nakakasuka ang itsura ko. hahaha.

i tried cutting down on my carbs. yun daw kse ang malakas magpalaki ng tiyan. isang araw, nag half rice ako for breakfast. shempre, di ko kinaya. kaya hanga ako sa kasama ko dito sa work, kse laging half rice lang ang inoorder nya pag kumakain kami. breakfast or lunch. ginugutom ako.

willpower. yun ang kailangan ko ngayon. matinding willpower na mag-exercise.

may nag-advice nga saken i don’t need to buy a statio-bike daw. mag-gym na lang ako. naman. work from 6am-7pm. may time pa ba mag-gym? sows naman. andami ko na ngang birthday-an na di napuntahan. dahil may work ako e.

kahit holiday, meron din. ganun ba kadami talaga ang nangangailangan ng suero o pang-dialysis sa mundo? haay.

naco, don’t get me wrong. thankful ako na may trabaho ako. pero nasobrahan naman ata. hehehe.

hopefully i could post more often. parang once every two months na lang. haysus.

10 things i miss right now…

1. 8-hrs of sleep. working on a 6am schedule, kulang na lang lagi ang tulog ko. my sked’s supposed to be from 6am to 4pm, 5 days a week (compressed workweek). nasusunod ba yun? lately, hindi. most of the time, i’m at work from 6am to 6pm, or later than that. kaya nga wala na kaming QT ni hubby. pagdating ko from work, i’ll eat dinner tapos, tutulog na. i don’t even watch tv anymore.

2. ice-cold beer in the company of friends. medyo matagal-tagal na rin ang huli naming pagkikita ng mga kaibigan ko (mga december pa yun). we couldn’t work out our schedules eh. my friend rhods’ rest days are mon/tues. shempre naman the rest of us have work on those days. kaka-miss mag-inom kasama ang mga balahura kong kaibigan. kala ko nga last thursday baka pwede kaming mag-couples man lang. but my other friend redj said she’s out-of town daw. work-related. haay.

3. comfy pants. lately lang, napansin ko, sumisikip na ang mga pantalon ko. oo. it’s a sign na tumataba na ako. i have two options para ma-resolba ito. one is to buy new pairs of pants (na magastos, besides ano naman gagawin ko sa mga luma di ba?) and the other —- exercise. madaling sabihin, ngunit mahirap gawin. i didn’t even consider dieting. wala yun sa bokabularyo ko. masarap kumain. i thought i was blessed kse kahit gano kalakas kong lumamon, di ako tumataba. i guess some good things never last. pinagbabayaran ko na yata lahat ng katakawan ko nung medyo bata pa ako.

4. divisoria — ewan ko ba kung baket, pero gusto ko lang namimili sa lugar na ito. kaso mo, wala na ngang panahon. plus, wala na rin naman space ang closet ko for newer stuff. at least nakatipid ako di ba.

5. yaya’s cooking. hindi naman sa sinasabi kong hindi masarap ang pagkain sa bahay namin. pero nami-miss ko ang luto ni yaya talaga. siguro blessing in disguise na rin. kse kung hindi baka mas tumaba pa ako ngayon.

6. wearing flip-flops. bawal naman kse sa work. so yung mga flip-flops, tsinelas at sandalyas, naco, inaagiw na sa shoe rack.

7. the beach. i need a vacation. badly. i think.

8. cafe breton’s vesuve. parang nagc-crave ako neto. tsk. salungat ang sked namin ni hubby. di ko maaaya mag-breton (the nearest one is in paseo sta. rosa) spontaneously.

9. FBM (full body massage) — ahhh, just thinking about having one makes me wanna go to the spa immediately. kaso, oras. oras ang wala ako. tsk tsk.

10. long warm baths — dahil early ang pasok, i set my alarm at 345am (in time for my 6am work sked). kaso i keep on snoozing kaya mga 430 na ko minsan nagigising. ang resulta, speed ligo lagi. once or twice a week na nga lang ako nakakapag-hilod e (yes, yung bato ang gamit ko. i grew up using one. yun ngang panghilod ko sa bahay ngayon eh kinuha ko talaga sa bahay namin—bahay ng nanay ko pala). tsk tsk. laging dali-dali sa pagligo para di ma-late. haay.

2 months AWOL

more than 2 months pala akong walang post. sa sobrang ka-busy-han, di na ko nakakapag-update. mas nagbibisita pa ako ng blogs ng iba kesa mag-update dito.

hindi ko akalain na mawawalan ako ng araw ng pahinga. kung ang diyos nga daw may linggo para mag-rest, pwes, ako nawalan ng restday.

sabi ko nga sa mga kasamahan ko sa trabaho, nagpapasalamat naman ako at hindi ako napasama sa mga taong nawalan ng trabaho. truly, i’m soooo grateful at hindi kami mashado apektado ng nauusong recession na yan. pero naman… yung 7 araw isang linggo kang nasa trabaho? naman. ang parang nagiging restday ko lang eh kung galing akong night shift. saturday night papasok. tapos pagdating naman ng monday morning, 6am ang shift ko. ang ganda ng work sked ko di ba?

today is the 1st chance i got na magkameron ng rest day. mabuti pa nga ang mga tao namin, may rest day sila. kaming mga bisor, sus, nawalan ng pahinga. we worked out our schedule at hindi na fixed ang rest day namin, pero at least may rest day na kami. nagpaparinig nga yung isa kong kasama. he was supposed to attend a wedding (nung isang tao namin). ninong kse sya. he wanted to swap rest days e. kahapon sana yun. kaso mo, may project ako na hindi ko matatapos by thursday. kaya kelangan kong pumasok ng friday.

sabi ko: sorry but i wouldn’t give up my restday para maka-attend ka ng kasalan. pasensya na talaga.

he of course understands (plus palagay ko may excuse na sya, kse hindi pa sya nagkaka-chicken pox and the groom got it mga 2 weeks ago).

i’m glad and sooo happy may rest day ako. pero ang downer???

hubby has work today. tsk tsk. si alanis lang ang naririnig ko ngayon… haaay.

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like what i said in my previous post. scheduled VL ko yesterday & today. i treated my family to dinner last night somewhere in atc. a few weeks ago, i’ve been contemplating on where to celebrate my birthday. will it be in an asian seafood restaurant or american resto. whenever we’d dine out, i’m always thinking of my mom’s twin sister. she doesn’t like american food. she doesn’t like steaks, burgers, etc. what she loves is pinoy food. sinaing na tulingan, adobo, etc. so i was leaning on the asian seafood restaurant rather than the american resto. she gave me the answer a few days before my birthday. she said she also liked the american resto because the food there was great. so american resto it was. i had reserved for 21 (yes, that’s how many we are!) but my MIL’s having difficulty traveling due to an operation she had about a year and a half ago. so they begged off (we just had lunch delivered at home as my treat for them).

here are most of the gifts i got (ninang & da’s gifts, and monet & jay’s also, i failed to take photos of, sorry…) —-

we started off with some appetizers first while waiting for the others to arrive. da’s family had to wait for the end of color coding before they could leave their condo. monet & jay were coming from makati.

then each one of them ordered what they wanted… here are some of ‘em…

kujules and kuya jayvee each had the cheeseburger (which i think is gigantic!)

monet and da each had this garlic chicken pasta primavera (which i liked, but needed a little more salt or cheese, for my taste)

ninang, mark, joan and dino each had the Jack Daniel’s porkchop, which according to mark is good (feels like steak when you slice it. hehe)!

hubby & i shared this sizzling chicken & shrimps (the mashed potatoes were gone before i remembered that i haven’t taken a photo of it yet).

mom had the same. i didn’t get to take photos of what kuya keats, ves, rach, deedee, tito greg and jay had. they were at the end of the table. hehehe. but if i remember it right, i think rach had the mushroom chicken and mushroom something… hahaha. the kids had the kiddie fingers. deedee ordered this after her meal…

i love their oreo madness but since everyone was full and i couldn’t finish one by myself, i didn’t order it anymore (which i really regret, tsk.). after the meal, while we were walking to the parking lot, everyone was asking me how much i spent for the treat. i told them nothing. i got a bonus last month and i told them i’d rather share the blessing with everyone than keep it to myself. i always wanted to eat in that resto with the whole family. usually it’s just some friends i’m with. or with my hubby. it’s a different experience when you go out, eat a lot, with a big family. i think i enjoy the food more. hehe. thanks for everyone for celebrating the night with me. and for all the great gifts you gave. what’s next? we’re waiting where joan, mark and tito greg will treat us. they’re april celebrants too. the lowdown of the night? hubby took out the scale when we got in. i tried and looked too (haven’t weighed for a long time) and here is what it was…

the last time i weighed i was just 96… and now it went up to 102. need to exercise, hubby said. although i’m still underweight. exercise to be fit is what i need, i think. not to lose weight.

bakasyon

i’m off for about 11 days! ansarap.

scheduled VL (at the start of the year, we give a VL planner, ilagay mo dun when you’d take your leave credits, and we call it scheduled VL) ko today and tomorrow. tapos weekend. walang work. the rest of next week, shutdown ang plant where i work cause of major repairs that will be done on the floors.

parang ang haba. baka tamarin na ako bumalik sa trabaho a. hehehe.

hopefully on the 7th & 8th eh wala pa rin akong work. hindi pa kse sure yun e.

all i know is, i’m getting bored waiting for hubby to get home. we’re having dinner later with my family. i’m sure magpapakabundat na naman kami.

the boat is sinking…

i’m feeling swamped lately. di ba obvious? di nakakapag-update dito. my boss resigned a couple of weeks ago (i didn’t like how it happened) and we miss her. mahirap pala mawala ang boss. dumadami ang kailangan gawin.

isipin mo naman, i’m here in the office 10hrs a day, monday thru friday. tapos, ang bagong plant manager namin wants us to be present too when another operation is ongoing (na dati naman hindi namin pinapasukan). kaya naman pati weekends ko dito na rin ako nabuburo.

i don’t like the set-up, but what can i do? mag-resign?!? at san naman ako pupunta. haay. sa mga ganitong panahon, hinahanap ko talaga ang trabaho sa gobyerno. you don’t work on weekends, tapos you work an 8-hour day lang. sabi naman ng nanay ko, mababa naman ang sweldo. i answered her: di ko naman pinangarap yumaman. ayoko lang maging mahirap.

sabi ko nga sa colleague ko, buti na lang wala pa akong anak. pano na kung meron? anong quality time pa ang mas-spend ko with them if ever di ba? i used to enjoy it here. kaso parang unti-unting nawawala ang fun at enjoyment sa trabaho ko. how do i get over this?

truth or lie! (borrowing sweet’s line sa showbiz central)

angel tagged me. and so did damdam. any 10 things about me, 9 truths and a lie. go figure which is which.

1. ang tawag saken ng iba kong tita at tito nung bata pa ako eh si “kilometrico”. i know it shows how old i am, when i say that it’s a brand name of a ballpen. baka yung iba jan, hindi pa narinig ang brand na yun. pero baket nila ako tinawag ng ganyan? sabi nila i once cried daw from bicol to batangas non-stop. cause i wanted something and my mom couldn’t get me whatever that was that i wanted (i was too little to remember). ngawa raw ako ng ngawa. pamula nun yun na ang tinawag nila saken. buti na lang na-outgrow ko yung nickname na yun. pero nung bata ako, talagang ganun ang style ko ng pag-iyak. ubos na ang tears pero ang sound andun pa rin. kaya naman bwiset na bwiset ang mga kuya ko dati pag nagta-tantrum ako. o sya, sige aaminin ko na. i was a brat (i still am, i think. hehe).

2. i’m a lolo’s girl. sobra. my lolo had 10 grandsons before i came. 4 from my tita baby, 2 from my ninang prency, 1 from my ninang (who isn’t really my ninang but we call her that), my mom’s twin sister and 3 older brothers. kaya nung buhay pa ang lolo ko, i could get away with anything. my mom would reprimand me or spank me and when i start crying (out loud so lolo could hear), he’d go to me and tell my mom “o sya, tama na yan.” and always defend me. hehehe.

3. nung kinder ako, inggit na inggit ako sa mga kaklase ko. kse di ako makabili ng junk food or softdrinks sa canteen. ang baon ko kse laging 2 pesos lang. hindi pa sapat para makabili ng chippy man lang. when i grew older, nalaman ko na 5 pesos pala talaga ang binibigay ng nanay ko na baon. dos lang ang binibigay saken ng inay (my mom’s mom) at ang tres direcho na sa bangko. kaya feeling ko, deprived ako nung bata. (yung savings nga pala sa bank, di ko natikman. ewan ko kung san napunta. ginastos ata ng mommy ko. hahaha)

4. never ko na-experience maligawan. sa buong buhay ko 2 lang naging boypren ko. isa nung college at yung isa eh itong napangasawa ko. (although, ang alam pala ng nanay ko isa lang naging boypren ko — si hubby na yun) at sa parehong yan, hindi ako niligawan. parehong kaibigan ko muna sila. sa una, sinabi lang na “i like you, do you like me?” natameme ang promdi self ko at ayun, kami na. sa pangalawa, kung di ko pa sinunggaban, di aamin na type din pala ako. kaya wala ako maipagmamalaki sa mga magiging apo ko na great & sweet love story namin. tsk.

5. nung college, thursday nights were gimik nights. ano nga ba ang gimik namin noon? punta sa mga tambayan or sa may vetmed, magcha-charades habang nagiinom. at dahil may curfew ang dorm namin ng 12mn (oo, mala-cinderella ang drama namin noon), malimit we’d stay up till 5am (yun ang oras na nagbubukas ulet ang dorm) tsaka uuwi. one time, early natapos. trobol kami ng mga kabatch ko (4 kami na same dorm ang tinitirahan). sarado pa ang dorm. ang plano, magpa-cute sa guard. baka pagbuksan. around 3am ata yun, nasa gate na kami. tinatawagan si manong guard. ngunit mukhang tulog. pano ba ang pwede naming gawin? yung bakod ng gate may space bago yung ground. eh hindi namin magising-gising si guard. wala na kaming magawa, nag-crawl kami para makapasok. ang masaklap mo, when it was the last person to crawl, biglang si manong guard: “at ano’ng ginagawa nyo diyan?!?”. huli. buti na lang charming ang mga kasama ko. ayun, di naman naisumbong sa dorm manager.

6. nung hs, muntik na akong mapatalsik sa dorm ko. oo, as in kick-out. ang reason, lagi daw ako nagru-room hopping. o, e ano naman ngayon? sa nasa ibang room ang friends ko e? buti na lang magaling magpa-langis ang nanay ko. ang style, laging binibigyan ng regalo si dorm manager. hehe.

7. isang beses, after ng gimik naming magkakaibigan, hinatid ako ng college friends ko sa swimming gimik ng officemates ko. so mejo senglot na. pero sige, gimik pa rin. pagkatapos ng ilang minuto, binalikan ako. mag-gay bar daw kami. 2 cars kami nun, mostly girls. except for 2 guys (asawa ng friend at friend ng friend). nagulat ako at walang covercharge. kaya naman pala e pag-upo mo pa lang 5 bottles of warm beer agad ang ise-serve sayo. good as ordered na pala. pagtingin namin sa stage, may mga guys na nakahilera gumigiling-giling. may mga damit pa. after some time, nasusuka na ako (hindi sa show kundi dahil laseng na), so nagbanyo. paglabas ko, wala nang mga pants. at ang suot? white, shiny, spandex na cycling shorts. kadiri ang itsura. hahaha. inom inom, nood nood. after some time, banyo na naman. paglabas ko, wala nang saplot. meron na lang bandanang animal print na gamit pang cover sa cuteness nya. kaso laseng na talaga ang lola nyo. nag-aya nang umuwi. on the way home. pinagalitan ako ng mga friends. kaya daw sila nagaya dun para naman makakita ako ng cuteness ng lalaki (ahm, ako na lang kse ang virgin sa barkada ko nung panahong yun, hehehe). useless gimik, wala rin ako nakita. hahaha.

8. nung 2nd yr hs, dahil ang upd eh walang pasok pag wednesdays, lagi kaming tumatambay ng sm north edsa, in the hopes na makita namin ang mga crush namin (sila ang mga seniors nung freshies pa kami, at bale freshies na rin sa diliman). how pathetic di ba? ginagawan pa talaga namin ng paraan makalabas ng campus. kami kseng dormers eh bawal lumabas without a gate pass signed by the dorm manager. buti na lang meron kami friends na magaling mag-forge. hahaha.

9. when i was working in mandaluyong (circa 2003-2004), nagulat na lang ako when after eating breakfast, bigla na lang ako kinantahan ng mga AMTs ng happy birthday, out of the blue, eh hindi ko naman sila kilala (well, i know one of them kse sya yung nakaka-interact ko sa work). ang nakakatawa mo nun, it wasn’t even my birthday. yung kantang yun ang nagsimula ng pagiging benya ko with them. na kinagulat ng mga regulars (i was part of the QA team, ang AMTs manufacturing). kse wala raw girl na nagiging close dun sa mga yun. ano daw ginawa ko. baket ako? i didn’t do anything. pamula nun, malimit na kami gumigimik nung mga yun. even when i wasn’t with the company anymore, minsan nagte-text din sila na may gimik sila near my place, sama daw ako.

10. hubby and i’ve tried all the positions illustrated dun sa gift ni mommy kengkay na the complete idiot’s guide to super charged kama sutra. para magka-baby. successful ba kamo? sad to say, hindi pa. nakakaaliw din basahin itong librong ito. dito ka nalaman na isang term pa pala for the female genitalia ay yoni. tawang-tawa ako. kse i used to know a guy in college na yoni ang name. hahaha.

there, it took me awhile to finish this post. i won’t be tagging anyone. this tag has been around a while already. luma na kung magta-tag pa ako. but anyone’s free to do this tag if they want. iwan lang kayo ng comment if you did, para mabasa ko rin at makapanghula rin which is which.

aquarius

The sun/moon influence offers a slight reprieve from the recent glitches, but while travel plans are fabulously aspected for today, bear in mind that tomorrow may bring a few hiccups directly related to travel. Use the day to undo a negative impression, to volunteer an explanation and to generally make some metaphorical repairs!

Your Compatible Sign today for
Love: Aries

That’s today’s horoscope of an Aquarian. What’s the basic profile of an Aquarian? Here:

Progressive, original, idealist, altruistic, issue-oriented, charismatic, up-to-date, visionary, humanitarian, personable, imaginative, generous, inspiring, practical, congenial, casual, open-minded, amiable, inventive, off-beat, but can be rebellious, eccentric, thoughtlessness, contrarian, childish, aloof, uninvolved, obstinate, antisocial, unconventional, impressionable

Why do I bother? No reason. Natawa lang ako kse talaga namang ang ka-compatible daw for the day (Love) is an Arian. So bale pwede magpalit pala. Depende sa araw? Hehe. Bukod dun, baket pa ako natawa? Kse Arian ako. O eh ano namang koneksyon? Si Mr. Antuken Aquarian. So talagang perfect na kaming dalawa ang compatible today. Kse birthday nya ngayon. So ibig sabihin, di ko dapat painitin ang ulo nya. Pagsilbihan ko sya. Sundin lahat ng kagustuhan nya. Hehehe. It’s not as if umiinit ang ulo nya. Bihira yun. Between the two of us, I’m the more volatile one (duh! aside from the obvious na ako ang babae,  major moody ako). Why did I include the basic personality of an Aquarian in this post? Sobrang natawa ako kse kasama dun yung anti-social. I’ve been telling him since time immemorial that he is anti-social. Sa family gatherings (family ko), tahimik lang yan. Sits in one corner. Dun nga sa monito namin last christmas, his monito had a little hard time trying to describe him (that’s what we did before revealing). Ang sabi, he doesn’t really know him much. Even my friends’ initial opinion of him was tahimik daw. Which they say is perfect kse nasakop ko na raw yung share nya sa kaingayan ko. Hahaha.

Kaya siguro walang saysay o hindi namin sine-celebrate ang Valentine’s Day. Pamula nung naging mag-boypren/gelpren kami hanggang sa ngayong mag-asawa na kami, Feb. 14 is just another day. Kse prior to it, nakapag-selebra na kami.

What do we plan to do today? Ano bang mapa-plano namin? I’ll be getting off work in about a little over an hour. Add an hour to that for me to get home. Shempre, wala akong kwenta. Malamang matutulog lang ako the whole day. He asked me to take the day off. Shempre, dahil start of the year pa lang hinihingan na kami ng VL (vacation leave) planner, na-schedule ko na yun.

Hopefully I won’t be such a sleepyhead today and try to get up early. In time to help him and his mom prepare for tonight’s dinner. He invited a few relatives and a few friends over to have a little celebration. In the 5 years that I’ve known him, this is the first time that he’s celebrating it with other people (aside from his parents & I). I’ve been asking him what he plans to serve (food), and all he keeps telling me is that everything’s been taken care of. So okei, I’ll probably just be decorative later. Hehehe.

Antuks, I wish you wonderful things for 2009. Hopefully, we won’t have any major fights – petty ones are welcome cause making up after’s good. I wish you good health. May whatever it is that’s been bothering you for a while now be nothing (go see a doctor!). May we have the enthusiasm to work out together (pareho tayong tumataba, hehe). And I wish you’d have the best day today ever! Happy birthday and always know that what I feel for you’ll never wane. Probably it’ll get more intense. hehe. Labyu.

 

mr & mrs antuken

cheesy? hahaha. i don’t care. happy anniv skut. much love.

more about “mr&mrs antuken Video“, posted with vodpod

one year and counting…

time flies, they say. and it goes by so fast esp. if you’re doing a lot of things. work has kept me busy lately and posting stuff has been limited. blog visits included.

flashback: jan. 19, 2008 — woke up to a drizzly day. not the kind of weather i hoped for at all. not with something big happening. but the older ones say it’s a sign of blessing. the events were a big blur actually. the photographer & his crew arriving early. me getting dolled & dressed up. going to ninang rose’s house for the photo-op. the drizzle didn’t go away at all. by the time the ceremony was over, it was raining. we didn’t get to shoot as much shots as we wanted. it was night time when the ceremony finished. i should’ve opted for an earlier mass. hugs, kisses and congratulatory greetings. envelops handed to me. photo-op again, this time with the guests. a little dinner, toast, cake cutting, flower throwing, garter tossing, a few speeches and that was it. wanted to spend more time with our guests & relatives, but i was fetched by my “new” hubby’s aunt. it was time to go. before leaving, mom asked when i’d visit them at home. and i was specifically told that i can’t. not in the next four days. good thing we were off to palawan in a couple of days.

return to: jan. 19, 2009 — morning kisses from hubby. he told me that he was off to get the car tank filled up. was still too tired to wake up. woke up at around 9am (yes, i am a majorsleepyhead) – not my usual waking hour. i usually wake up in the wee hours of the morning to get to work. but today, i was on leave. and so was hubby. i did a little laundry after breakfast. took a bath and got dressed. hubby & i planned to spend the day in tagaytay. try to experience how cold it would be out there (the past days were really cold). i was used to having the air-con off after passing through santa rosa. the air’s usually much cooler than the air-conditioning. but the windows of the car are having some problems. so we couldn’t roll them down. initially we wanted to try antonio’s. but my older brother had been there with his wife before, and i’m not so sure if i could appreciate what they serve. it’s a little pricey plus, i’m not much of a fan of veggies. or organically grown stuff. we cruised through tagaytay, trying to pick which place to eat. we ended up choosing gerry’s grill. not your usual place to spend an anniversary, i think. it’s more of a place to dine with your big family or with a group of friends. but i didn’t mind. not at all. first, i wasn’t feeling that good (suffering from the dreaded, all-time dreaded dysmenorrhea), second, i’m not the usual “chocolate-flowers-candle-lit dinner for two” type of wife.

after our lunch (there was a couple who spent their reception at gerry’s too while we were eating, hehe), hubby asked me where i wanted to go next. i had no idea. all i wanted to do then was lie down and ball-up like a fetus. i was having the worst case of dysmenorrhea then. didn’t get to appreciate all that we ordered. mango salad, grilled squid, fresh lumpia, LK (i think it’s hubby’s fave. hehe). i slept in the car and woke up in calaruega. i was feeling a little better because i popped in some painkillers before we left gerry’s. a little tour in the place. a few shots here and there and we were off to batangas. bought a few goodies at good shepherd first before going to mom’s place via the bitukang manok (we call it our short-cut in going home from tagaytay).

we spent a few hours at my mom’s house before heading back home. surprise of the day was i got a bunch of roses, white roses, as i got in the car. i had a small bag that i was going to return to my mom after our tagaytay trip, and hubby told me to put it in the trunk. i told him i could easily throw it in the back seat and when i did, i saw it. he said that when he told me that he was getting the tank filled up, he was lying. he really went to the shop to buy them for me. hmmn. unexpectedly sweet of him. but, like i said, i’m not that kind of wife. so it was no biggie. after a really non-eventful day, we both spent a few hours talking in bed first before going to sleep. i asked him what he wanted for his anniv gift and he told me he didn’t really want anything yet. he asked me what i wanted and i told him to just save up, not give me any gift for our coming anniversaries, cause what i wanted, still want, is a little expensive. i want some jewelry. diamonds are a girl’s best friend. hehehe.

here are a few photos. my feeling lousy wasn’t evident at all. hehehe.