that’s me. and with my daddy having his 68th birthday tomorrow, napapa-senti ako ng di oras. most of you who’ve read my blog for some time know that my dad is suffering from alzheimer’s. it’s really heartbreaking watching him most of the time. he couldn’t recognize any of us anymore. not his wife, not his siblings, not any of his kids. it’s like looking at a stranger.
he couldn’t talk. he couldn’t do stuff any normal grown-up would do. someone should be there to prepare food and watch him eat. someone should be there to ensure he drinks enough water everyday. someone’s giving him baths, dressing him up.
and i haven’t been a good daughter to him since he was struck with this disgusting disease. not once have i tried in assisting yaya or my brothers in giving him baths or trying to feed him. at first, i was scared. he was prone to having violent fits most times. especially when it was bath time. it was as if he was hydrophobic. he’s kick out, punch out, lash out at everyone. so i saw it best not to try to help. all of my 3 kuyas received hits from him. punch in the face, on the shoulder, in the stomach. which is all so unfamiliar. he has always been the soft-spoken, silent one. i think i only heard him raise his voice a couple of times only. i really seldom hear him raise his voice.
nowadays, i always greet him when i visit my mom’s house. but he just stares. that blank stare. he doesn’t recognize me anymore. i talk to him sometimes but it’s like talking into thin air. i miss my daddy so much. and the saddest thing? i wasn’t able to treat him out during fathers’ day or during his birthday. he was too sick by the time i could afford it.
every time i hear this song, naco, it brings tears to my eyes talaga.
esp. this one. hay naco.
happy birthday daddy. i miss you.
hi miss chona! lio po. hihihi! hindi ako masyadong makarelate kasi wala naman talaga akong nakalakhang tatay. at sa libro ko lang nababasa ang mga ganitong scenario. basta kung gano mo kamahal ang tatay mo, iparamdam mo!
at salamas sa makabuluhang talakayan sa isang mesang puno ng mga pinaghalu-halong alak.
thanks. had fun din last night. at balita ko namigay ka raw ng jacket a. wow. generous. hehe.
hahaha! wala eh, may amats na kaya biglang napa-oo. at para naman kay ser gasti ‘yun na haydol ko kaya kahit paborito kong jacket ‘yun, ayos lang. hehehe!
te chona, ako rin.wala akong maisasabi dito kasi nga wala rin akong tatay….pero yung sayo is much worse than mine. Nandyan nga pero hindi mo naman makakausap ng matino. Yung akin alam ko namang wala na siya. Sige lang teh, just savor the time na andyan siya sayo…..happy bday sa dad mo. 🙂
PS: Thanks talaga noong sat. Nahiya naman ako sa abala. ahehhe
Sat? alin yun? Monday ang alam kong lumabas tayo. hehe. Thanks for the goodies ha.
bihira din kami mag usap ng tatay ko pero buti naman at nakikilala nya pa ko. lagi nya nga ako miscall nung monday kc di pa ako umuuwi. haha!
happybday sa daddy mo. kundi man nya maalala atleast maramdaman nya pa din love mo..naks! ramdam nya yun!
thanks din at nice meeting you. in-add na kita sa facebook ah wag ka na magalit..hehe! bitin yung kwentuhan. next time ulit.
haha. bitin nga. tsaka next time yung pwede ka na sumabay samen ni maldito sa inuman. hehe.